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Wednesday, March 31, 2004 |
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sebuah berita yang nongol di YM gw pagi ini...
Sumber berita dari penguasa bank di Indonesia... Berikut daftar bank-bank yang akan tutup: 1. Bank BNI 2. Bank BRI 3. Bank Mandiri 4. Bank BTN 5. Bank Danamon 6. Bank BCA 7. Bank BII 8. Bank Permata 9. Bank Niaga 10. Bank Agro 11. Bank ABN 12. Bank Citibank 13. Bank HSBC 14. Bank Panin 15. Bank Standard Chatered sempet bikin kaget...!!!!! tapi baca deh lanjutan beritanya... "bank tersebut diatas akan tutup sore hari setiap harinya dan akan buka kembali esok pagi setiap harinya..." hueheheheheee..... sorry buat yang pagi2 udah ketipu ama berita ini Got your bag on your shoulder Never thought once about thinking it over Feel like you are the only one Who's ever been in a bad situation Now you need to take yourself a love vacation 'Cause after all, what's done is done..... |
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Fuck what i said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack....(eamon) postingan beberapa waktu lalu gw sempet ngejanjiin bakalan upload gambar anarchynya si dharma waktu kita maen ke kuta pas balik gawe... sempet nongkrong di McD sambil ngeliatin sunset... masih tetep keren tuh sunset di kuta.. walopun sekeliling gw banyak banget galian saluran kerjaan pemda.. bikin kotor dan berdebu.. di kuta sekarang juga banyak pohon kelapa yang udah mulai gede.... hehehe jadi berasa balik ke kuta jaman dulu banget.. waktu maseh banyak pohonnya.. so.. nikmati dulu foto si dharma.. next time gw upload foto2 sunset di kuta...  |
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Tuesday, March 30, 2004 |
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kau membuat hatiku tersentuh
oleh keajaiban yang kau ciptakan... kau buat ku selalu tersenyum di atas keletihanku....(utopia) lo percaya akan adanya soulmate di dunia ini.... yang gw tau tuh soulmate kita tuh emang ajaib banget.. ngerti banget tentang kita dan kita bakal ngerti banget tentang dia... tanpa harus banyak berkata-kata.. hanya berpikir apa yang kita mau...tanpa perlu nunggu waktu yang lama kita bakalan bisa langsung connect dengannya.. sebuah keajaiban tentang cinta kasih... abis dengerin lagunya utopia dan obrolan dengan seorang teman yang juga percaya adanya soulmate di kehidupan dan dunia yang sucks ini.... |
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hari senin kemaren seperti biasa gw benci banget.... kerjaan yang dateng nga kenal ampun... sampe nga sempet nengokin blog temen2...
tapi ada hal2 asik yang bikin nga bete gara2 gawean.... 1. manager gw ultah sabtu kemaren dan dia bawain fruit cake pas hari senin ...yummi... 2. kiriman "the simpson" dari bapak yang satu ini udah nyampe dengan selamat dan semalem ngakak abis liat kelauan si bart.. thanks banget pak... gw lagi mikirin cara buat ngebales kebaikan elo... ;) tapi yang bikin sedih lagi tuh, bokapnya si dharma masuk rumah sakit lagi gara2 kena herpes.. duh... satu lagi beban bertambah.. keep stronger dude..!! |
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Saturday, March 27, 2004 |
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Man I'm dead
I guess it's no use I'm screwing up ever little thing I ever try to do I was born to lose......(simple plan) wuah.. wiken gini masuk kantor... yang ada cuma bengong doang gara2 kerjaan udah gw kebut kemaren... jadinya gw ari ini cuma ngedonlod lagu2nya muse... trus yah.. bengong.. hehehe have a nice weekend all..!!!! eh.. lupa euy mo upload foto anarchy-nya dharma di kuta kemaren... gara2 fotonya gw simpen di kompie rumah... lupa mo ngopi ke disket.. besok aja deh... wokey?!!! |
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Friday, March 26, 2004 |
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waks...
waktu cepet banget kayaknya.. udah jumat.. dan besok sabtu... hiyaaaaaaaaaa............ |
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Thursday, March 25, 2004 |
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Fuck The World..... | |
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Fuck the fields and
Destroy the ocean Roll the wheels up Forget the notion Life's so dead and The form is slow The mind's peculiar so Fuck the world up....(the vines) yeah... rock never dies..!!!! teriakan menggelegar..... diantara kepungan foto2 buat brochure yang bikin pusing.... huh.....!!! |
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Can you leave me here alone now
I don't wanna hear you say That you know me That I should be....(simple plan) sering kali temen2 gw nanya.."lo sibuk?" dan gw selalu ngejawab.."nga juga" itu karena emang kerjaan yang dateng nga pernah bisa di ramalkan dengan tepat....(cie.. bahasanya...tabloid banget yah.. hehehe) seperti hari ini... gw lagi berkutat dengan gambar2 arsitek yang penuh dengan garis2.. mencoba memberikan sentuhan warna grafis karena emang warna aslinya sucks banget..(hehehe..sori..buat kang arsiteknya..) dan tiba2... jebluk..!!!! di suruh bikin alternatif desain brochure yang jelas2 butuh ide2 segar...(sementara otak gw lagi di musuhin ama ide2 gw yang entah lagi plesiran kemana).... dan gw masih bisa bilang...."nga juga.." kalo ada yang nanyain hari ini gw sibuk?.. bingung ah....!! ideeeee.....!!!! lo lagi pergi kemana seh? kok gw lo tinggalin?..hiks... |
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Wednesday, March 24, 2004 |
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males gawe...
males mikir.... hari ini males banget... bingung mo ngapain... udah ah......!!! ps: hi cilla.. paket kamu dah nyampe.. makasih banget..!!!! can't say anything... thank u so much... |
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Tuesday, March 23, 2004 |
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kemaren abis long wiken gara2 hari raya nyepi..
asik juga kalo ngerasain nyepi tuh.. seharian lo nga ngehirup udara polusi... seharian lo cuma ngedenger suara alam... nga ada raungan kendaaan bermotor yang kadang bikin hati panas... nga ada macet... cuma sepi yang terasa.... dan gw berkutat dengan 28 days later, the soul, ju-on 1-3, animatrix, kopi, marlboro, indomie goreng, capucinno, taro snack, chitato, kornet, sandines, 2 linting "lakhnat", dan beberapa lagu suram dan malas... that was a great nyepi right? how bout you pals.... hope you got a wonderful long weekend.... |
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barusan ganti head...
bosen ama gambar yang lama.. lagi nyari gambar yang lebih serem... karena blom nemu, terpaksa.. nikmati dulu yang satu ini... Your voice on a thought now is your blood A chance for new life Now so close in your eye The same lies the moonshine now renders my thought You belted me silly, now bathe in my snot!...(incubus) |
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Saturday, March 20, 2004 |
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dan sedihku
tak kuijinkan membawa semua kebahagian...(gigi) nyepi kali ini nga ada pawai ogoh2... alesannya gara2 mo pemilu.. hihihi... takut di tunggangi kali ama parpol2 yang banyak duitnya... sementara itu gw juga lagi bingung mo nyepi di mana.. nga ada ide ampe sekarang.. ya udah deh.... liat ntar ajah... have a nice weekend all..... |
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Friday, March 19, 2004 |
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I really don't know what I'm doing here
I really think I should've gone to bed tonight but... "Just one drink".....(open) I just keep moving my mouth I just keep moving my feet I say I'm loving you to death Like I'm losing my breath And all the smiles that I wear...(just say hello) I don't care if Monday's blue Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too Thursday I don't care about you It's Friday I'm in love....(friday i'm in love) When you're talkin to yourself And nobody's home You can fool yourself You came in this world alone...(estranged) its just only song on my mp3 list... |
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Should I bite my tongue
Until blood soaks my shirt? We'll never fall apart Tell me why this hurts so much My hands are at your throat And I think I hate you.... barusan bisa ngisi blog lagi... setelah di hajar ama kerjaan yang nga ada habisnya tadi mata terasa perih dan berair mulu.... abis ngewarnain gambar... liat screen kompie yang gede... gambar yang segede-gedenya biar keliatan detailnya... capekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk......................... Because maybe You're gonna be the one that saves me ? And after all You're my wonderwall....(oasis) |
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Wednesday, March 17, 2004 |
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I'd rather stay here in my room
Nothin' out there but sad and gloom I don't wanna live in a big old tomb on grand street.... udah rabu... dan besok kamis.... gw di sini aja... duduk di pojokan dan terdiam menikmati carutnya isi kepala.... |
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Tuesday, March 16, 2004 |
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she says baby
it's 3 am I must be lonely when she says baby well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes says the rain's gonna wash away, i believe it....(3 am) Don't say that later will be better Now you're stuck in a moment And you can't get out of it...(stuck in the moment) I know I can't hold the hate inside my mind 'Cause what consumes your thoughts controls your life So I'll just ask a question What if?....(what if) I am an anarchist Don't know what I want but I know how to get it I wanna destroy the passer by cos I I wanna BE anarchy.....!!!(anarchy in the UK) I Did Nothing, Saw Nothing Terrorist Confrontation Waiting For The End Wartime Conspiracy..(arise) I'm so tall, can't get over me I'm so low, can't get under me I must be all these things for I just threw out the love of my dreams.....( I just threw out the love of my dreams) It's my mandate I'm highly animated even though I'm decomposing So if your feet is frozen I'ma die to see you ropin'..(rock the house) I know I'll see you again Whether far or soon. But I need you to know that I care, And I miss you....(i miss u) |
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huh....
paling sebel.. kalo dokter selalu sok tau.. dan bilang.. kalo panas dingin yang gw dapetin tuh bisa aja penyakit lama gw yang timbul lagi.. dan mutusin.... "kamu tes darah ke lab..." berapa lagi duit yang harus keluar? perasaan yang was-was.. kenapa nga... nyipe aja sih..??? Tonight, I need a good injection Get away from babies little shelter I've gotta get out and maybe I ain't coming back |
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Monday, March 15, 2004 |
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badan gw menggigil..
panasnya lumayan buat bikin telor ceplok... kenapa sih? di saat lagi ada kerjaan yang mendesak... gw harus menyerah kalah lagi....??? ringkih???? A shallow grave A monument to the ruined age Ice in my eyes.... And eyes like ice don't move Screaming at the moon Another past time.... |
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Sunday, March 14, 2004 |
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I'm gonna come on in
My eyes are closed I can feel it there The sun's so close I'm gonna come on out And burn the sky...... |
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abis dari nemenin si dharma di rumah sakit gara2 bokapnya mendadak darah tinggi... duduk berdua di pelataran rumah sakit yang sunyi.. saling bercerita tentang masa lalu yang kadang bikin terbahak-bahak.. nga perduli ama pelototan orang yang terganggu istirahat malamnya.. hehehe.. maap.. maap...
merangkai impian tentang ideout yang mulai merangkak perlahan.... malam mulai merangkak perlahan... saatnya untuk istirahat saatnya untuk merebahkan sejenak pikiran2 yang menggumpal..... mudah2an mata ini bisa terlelap... merangkai mimpi... berharap masih ada pagi yang datang karena sudah ada beberapa kerjaan yang bakal menghajar pikiran ini lagi... In a bullet proof vest With the windows all closed I'll be doing my best I'll see you soon..... |
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Saturday, March 13, 2004 |
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It doesn't hurt when I bleed.
But my memories they eat me. I've seen it all before. Bring it on cause I'm no victim. Dying away, away......(pearl jam) hepi wikel all.... have a nice wiken... see you on fuckin monday...!!! |
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Friday, March 12, 2004 |
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aku tak percaya lagi....
aku terdampar di sini di sudut menunggu mati.... aku tak percaya lagi akan guna matahari yang dulu mampu terangi sudut gelap hati ini.....(so7) liriknya asik banget.. soulnya dapet..... kelamnya dapet... |
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i want the sky to fall in..
i want lightning and thunder... i want blood instead of rain.. i want the world to make me wonder... i want to walk on water... take a trip to the moon.. give me all this and give me it soon.... more drink more dreams more drugs..... more lust more lies more love.... more fear more fun more pain more flesh.... more stars more smiles... but however hard i want... i know deep down inside.... i'll never really get more hope... or any more time..... |
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Thursday, March 11, 2004 |
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Remember the time that the sky went black
We waited alone on the sands Remember the taste of the raging sea But nobody held out their hands Somebody died for this Somebody died For just one kiss.... diantara sunyinya siang hari...dalam ruangan dingin.. mencoba menghangatkan otak yang udah beku dengan segala gambar2 di monitor yang semakin terlihat abu-abu... |
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004 |
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Kau kepakkan kau terbangkan sayap pikiranku
Menembus ruang dan waktuku Membangunkan lelap jiwaku Setelah lama tertidur Ada benarnya ucapan katamu Memang hidup itu harus begini adanya.... abis dengerin lagu padi.. diantara kepenatan dan kelelahan pada ramainya dunia.. pada sepinya keramaian yang terasa... wake up man...!!!! beri warna pada dunia...!!! mencoba bijak...huh?? diantara gloomy yang menyelimuti? |
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tired of it all
hopelessly helplessly broken apart i finally falls i doesn't want to think doesn't want to feel doesn't want to know what's going on says there's nothing i can do will change anything i doesn't want to know what's going wrong because i'm in love with a drug one that makes i'm numb one that stops i'm feeling at all i'm in love with a drug..... pagi ini maseh rada sempoyogan setelah semalam tubuh ini gw hajar dengan 4 butir pil kimia.. akibat nga bisa tidur tapi badan terasa lelah banget... duh.. flu ini nga kunjung selesai.. malah semakin parah.. drug never help me anymore... what should i do? sementara ada kerjaan yang menunggu...:( |
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Tuesday, March 09, 2004 |
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Leave me to die
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Catch me if I fall
I'm losing hold I can't just carry on this way And every time I turn away Lose another blind game The idea of perfection holds me...(the cure) nga ada kerjaan yang mendesak.. nga ada desain yang harus di buat.. nga ada apa2... I went away alone with nothing left but faith.... |
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Izinkan ku singgahi taman surgamu
Izinkanlah bibirku ucap asmaMu Begitu lekatnya santun kata terucap Selamat tinggal dunia seiring laraku Mengharu biru.... sebuah lirik yang terlintas saat warnet yang butut ini nga kunjung membaik koneksinya... Terlelap sudah ruang dan waktu Tercerai sukma dari tubuhku Saat menepi titian diri Kumemohon tuluskanlah hatimu.... |
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Monday, March 08, 2004 |
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Maybe I'm insane
Walking on a wire Maybe I'm the same Nothing to take me higher Tell me where to start Think I'm at the end Right now feeling pain Make it go away......(korn) diwarnet yang lambatnya ngajubile minjalik.... pengen bunuh diri.........!!!!! set dah..!!! selamat malam...MALAM..!!!! I can't deal with in my life To all these greedy people Trying to feed on what is mine You've got to fill your hunger And stop fucking with my mind I know it's time to leave these places far behind.....(leave this place-korn) |
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Saturday, March 06, 2004 |
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Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding on to all I think is safe It seems I found the road to nowhere And I'm trying to escape I yelled back when I heard thunder But I'm down to one last breath...(creed) huh... kali ini gw nyerah ama demamnya badan gw... terkapar tak berdaya seharian di kamar... dengan kepala yang rasanya mau meledak... badan yang menggigil.. mata yang tak mau terpejam... sudah juga meminum pil-pil kimia.. berteman dengan the cure, weezer, creed, korn.... mencoba bertahan pada kesadaran penuh.. mungkin kali ini gw emang harus.... kalah..... wish all of you got a good weekend than me... |
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Friday, March 05, 2004 |
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menikmati kesendirian..
bersama dengan lagu2 dari headphone gw.. dengan dunia gw.. dengan pikiran2 yang entah kemana... bad.... bad... i just feel bad... |
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shit..!! keparad... anjrit... buat my bloody fuckin'.... tooth..!!! yang udah ngeganggu gw sore ini... makasih buat sakitnya yang tak terkira.... but.. more pain more fun huh...!!!! |
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Thursday, March 04, 2004 |
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Waitin', watchin' the clock,
it's four o'clock, it's got to stop... than im still waiting.... di depan kompie gw.. nunggu kerjaan yang bakal ngehajar gw sampe malam nanti.... |
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lyric for the day... | |
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satu demi satu pergi tinggalkan aku...
sendiri.... mungkin kini diriku tak punya arti lagi dan ku sendiri.... sepi... (cokelat) lirik lagu ini pernah gw posting beberapa waktu lalu.. karena waktu itu emang suasana diri gw persis kayak gitu dan kini gw ngerasain itu lagi... nikmati kesendirian itu lagi.....!!! ps: buat yang lagi berbunga-bunga.. selamat menikmati hari-hari merah jambunya... |
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Wednesday, March 03, 2004 |
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I am living because I keep it all inside
I know I'm close to the fall I know I'm dangerous I'm afraid I'm going down.... work..work..work... full of work today... tired.... maseh batuk dan pilek di tambah pusing.. huh..!!!! |
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Tuesday, March 02, 2004 |
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you just tell me that i choose
so i choose death yr so full of what you want so i'm just gonna die.... tadi siang di depan kantor ada iring-iringan ngaben... rame banget orang yang nganter ke tempat peristirahatan terakhinya... nga tau kenapa akhir2 ini gw selalu ngedenger ataupun ngelihat hal-hal yang bersinggungan dengan kematian.... entah kenapa.... tiba2 aja pas ngeliat iring2an itu gw ngerasa mengidik.... |
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Monday, March 01, 2004 |
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wiken kemaren,
gw berantem ama temen gw.... gw nongkrong di warnet ampe jam 5 pagi gw berhasil membuat tangan gw bengkak dan ungu gw bersin2 dan akhirnya pilek plus batuk.. dada gw maseh aja sakit akibat rokok... tembok kamar jadi kotor gara2 gw tinju... pipi gw nyeri akibat tonjokan.. dan lagu ini buat yang udah bikin gw meradang kemaren.. You're just...a fuck. I can't explain it 'cause I think you suck. I'm taking pride, In telling you to Fuck Off and Die....(green day) |
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rest in peace... | |
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Now I can't see you mama
but I know you're always there you taunt, you tease me mama but I never never can keep away...(genesis) sebuah sms mengejutkan gw pukul 2 pagi malam minggu kemaren.. sms yang datang dari seorang sistah.. katanya ibunda si virtual telah pulang ke hadapan-NYA... gw terdiam sejenak.. berdoa... memohon sebisa mungkin kepada yang Kuasa.. semoga arwah sang ibunda di terima di sisi-NYA... di terima segala amal baiknya.. di ampunkan segala dosa2nya... buat keluarga yang di tinggalkan, semoga di beri kekuatan.. ikhlaskan segala yang terjadi... sekarang yang bisa diberikan cuma doa2 agar ibunda tenang berada di sisinya.. selamat jalan ibunda..... tiba2 gw merinding.. teringat mama gw yang ada di sana... love u mam..!!! |
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